A lie.

Okay, so when I said I would update everyday... that was obviously... not true. Haha but I'm trying...

It's time for kind of a rambly, nonsense-filled post though. Haven't had one of those in a while.

So. Recently I've been pretty stressed with school, club stuff, college apps, people... I don't know. I suppose life is just... like that. There's always going to be stress. For now, the best way I know how to cope with everything is a cup of hot chocolate. A movie. And hanging out with a bunch of people. Not the best way, but at least it's something.

Couple (many) things that I've been thinking about:
-Thinking can be exhausting. So can not thinking. Life is just exhausting sometimes.
-I am very out of shape. But I started running... so hopefully that keeps up... xD Hopefully I will start swimming too. I LOVE SWIMMING.
-Running away from things never works. Cutting things out never works either. Confronting things is really hard. Trying to figure exactly what you want is probably the most difficult of it all.
-I'm really looking forward to college. I understand my mother has good intentions when she nags... but SERIOUSLY. I don't think I can take it much longer. I know what's wrong and right. I'll be okay.
-College apps are driving me nuts. They really make me realize how little I know about myself.
-What the hell do macaroons taste like...? I really want to try some. They are really pretty.
-How cold is 20 degrees F really...? I wonder if I can take the east coast.
-Crying at random things is a good sign that you are not okay.
-Nail painting is a HEADACHE. Few things make me as irritated as chipped nails the day you do them. ARGH.
-It really does feel good to do something for the world. Even if that means sacrificing weekends and countless hours of menial labor. It yields over $1000 so it's worth it.
-Ice skating is one of the best traditions in the world.
-Regret is one of the worst feelings in the world. I really never want to feel like I could have done better, done differently. I think I just want to live life wherever it takes me.


and lastly,
-I want to skydive.

moar links <3

I have been having really bad dreams. Maybe I should try this.

Always love love love JAK&JIL but look at this inspiring photo. Humm I wanna make that.

Ecofriendly Art. God... really want to try this too.

A study in individuality and uniformity.

Reminder to self: Keep Calm and Ride On.

Have been having hot chocolate twice a day to nurse my melancholy mood. This would most definitely cheer me up.

Oh, this is so gorgeous...

It's time for some FAT KNITS.

I'm amused.

This post was done at the same time as this one. We raced to see who could come up with the best 10 links. (I win.)

RAWR

Okay. There's no excuse for this hiatus. BUT... life has kind of been a mess everywhere. I haven't even permitted myself to look at other blogs for fear I will get caught in it all and fail even harder at life. But AHH winter break is here.

:)

WINTER BREAK TO DO:
-update blog... every day... I promise to myself.
-all 7 college apps hehe
-watch glee
-UPDATE ETSY!
-finish Angela's birthday present... hah.
-write
-scholarships/competitions
-write my OPP for speech and debate woot
-hang out with ppl :)


There's more for sure... but that's already a massive, impossible list.

Good luck me.


Last note:
I love plum reds and black. And safety pins!
from: fusedmagazine