lookbook: SIMPLE DUPLICITY

Wearing: grey nightdress | vintage snakeskin belt | vintage riding boots

http://lookbook.nu/look/107965-SIMPLE-DUPLICITY

lookbook: tell me, darling

Wearing: white knitted tank | armani gold skirt | footless tights | brown strappy sandals from MARKON

lookbook: paint me bright

My first lookbook picture with someone else. :)
This is Samantha, my friend since grade school. Haha, she agreed to take a picture with me.

Don't you LOVE the colors in these pictures?

Wearing: painted silk skirt | white tank | vintage lace shirt | GoJane brown booties | studded belt | pearl earrings

http://lookbook.nu/look/102483-paint-me-bright

lookbook: sunkissed

Wearing: taffeta hat | burgandy men's shirt, tied | white v-cut shirt | birkenstocks

http://lookbook.nu/look/100836-sunkissed

lookbook: aspire to inspire

Wearing: black stretch top from GAP | grey pleated skirt | grey oxford heels from U.O. | black bowling bag from Ruche (thank you Vivianne and James! :) )

http://lookbook.nu/look/100052-aspire-to-inspire

lookbook: whisper a secret to that weed sprouting from concrete

Wearing: Vintage silk striped blouse | studded belt | handknitted cardigan

http://lookbook.nu/look/99422-whisper-a-secret-to-that-weed-sprouting-from-concrete

for the polyvore james perse contest

I still don't want to do homework....


see that arc over there? that's my yesterday. - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

for the polyvore yesstyle contest

I don't feel like doing my homework...


so tell me darling...do you wish we'd fall in love...? - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

fashion photography

Magazine: Marie Claire Italia March 2009
Editorial: Trancoso – Brasile 20/11/2008
Photographer: David Bellemere
Models: Tiiu Kuik & Michelle Buswell



Vogue Italia January 2009
Photo: Bruce Weber




Rinko Kikuchi
Magazine:i-D April 2008
Photographer: Matt Jones
photo by Neil Kirk
Marie Claire 2008
Gary: [GLWood + TheGLFactory Photography]


all photos:
http://community.livejournal.com/foto_decadent/

spring lust: a neutral symphony

Polyvore must be set at a spring neutral color scheme, because the choices were flooded with cremes, light pinks, browns...mmmmm I love these colors.


090313-accessories - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

Looking at this ensemble is making me really happy...even if I can't get all of it...any of it.
1. I realized that I really black and gold together. It's classy without being overdone and its just SO PRETTY.
2. For some reason there are not that many brown aviators out there...well, at least I don't see that many out there. The coffee color of these would be perfect for spring.
3. I WANT BLACK STUDDED LEATHER GLOVES. I'm not really sure why...they just appeal to me. Well, they'll be useful at least; my hands are always freezing cold.
4. The haphazard mix of charms on this is beautiful.
5. The colors here remind me of spring. I don't really wear huge earring, but I want to change that. They can do so much for a look.
6. These remind me of earrings for a queen or something...so elegant and substantial. I love the very faint faint pink color of the rocks.
7. I want a cocktail ring. The color on this one isn't obnoxious or glaringly ostentatious = love.
8. Light colored bags are probably not a good idea for a messy person like me...but this one I PROMISE I will take care of. Promise.


090313-shoes - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

I'm sure you all were expecting a set of shoes soon. :)
1. I love the flowers and leaves on this shoe. It's a PERFECT sandal for the spring and summer.
2. These wedge heels are incredible. That's all I'll say. (Well, the crisscrossing straps are amazing too.)
3. These are so quaint and charming. I want to wear these with jeans, skirts, sundresses...
4. This is probably unnecessarily complicated...but I like unnecessarily complicated things. They are amazing...the excessive straps gives the shoes character, don't you think?
5. The tiny cutouts on these are totally adorable. I also like how even though the cutouts seem very feminine, the entire shoe doesn't look that girly at all. The combination of the laces, the cutouts, and the ankle wrap is kooky in the best kind of way.
6. I have never really considered neutral-colored boots before...always thought they would be hard to match. But these are so beautiful, I may just have to reconsider.
7. I loove the simplicity of the cutouts and of course, the laces.

etsy find of the day

I feel INCREDIBLY productive today. I have a lot of my homework done for the week... it's going to be a good week.

And that reminds me...my loong looong rant. I think as long as I just get through everyday little by little... it'll all be good. Or at least tolerable.

Anyways I'm really excited. I'm going to get SO MUCH SLEEP! :)

I had too much time...had to find something to do so here is the etsy find of the day!

I love these scrabble tile pendants! The etsy seller has SO MANY DESIGNS to choose from....oh I could spend forever on this site!

Here are some:


THIS IS FOR ALL YOU PEOPLE TAKING BIO.
ART NOVEAU.
I want to GOOOO THEREEEE.

Check out her shop!

lookbook: i want to fold right up into a paper plane

Wearing: white mandarin collar blouse | cream woven scarf made by me :) | vintage printed vest | brown linen shorts | black tights | cuffed fur boots | vintage studded belt | silver stacking rings

etsy find of the day

So I'm trying to get back to knitting and crocheting and just crafting in general. I think it will help me relieve a lot of my stress and give me something to focus on, even if it is small.
Anyway, so I was browsing etsy and I saw this LOVELY handspun and handyed yarns. The colors are so rich and gorgeous... and romantic. I also love how there's a bit of metallic thrown in there, making it much more interesting.

Check Loop's etsy store for more handspun/handyed yarns!

here comes the long long...ramble

Okay.
I'm not doing well.
I'm being a whiny brat and complaining about life and school.
...
Sigh. It's awful. I think I have lost all will to work. It seems like everything I'm doing is just so I can compete with other people, and I really don't think I care that much.
But
I do.
I'm a competitive person. Sometimes I don't let it show, but in my head I'll be thinking, "Oh, that person did so much better..." and I'll feel like a failure because I can't do what they can.
Hmm...not the right way to put it I guess. A lot of the time, I know I CAN do it...but I'm too lazy to actually put all the time and effort into something that I really...don't care about much.
Which kind of brings me full circle.
I guess what it is is that I care about ... like the grades and the outcome, but I really don't care much about the classes. Which basically makes for a lazy, complaining, whining brat that still wants her As.
I'm rambling. But I need to get this out.
Anyway, recently I've been feeling that no matter what I do, I don't know how to do better. Studying doesn't seem to help, especially because I'm so unfocused.
I guess it comes down to that. I should just bite the bullet and just focus and work and study and just plow through anyway. Who cares if it doesn't matter in life?
But I really... when I think about my failures, I stand paralyzed. I lose the willpower and the ability to do well. I just keep thinking how this will manifest into an avalanche of failure later on.
And I can't just not care. I don't know any other way to measure my abilities or my talents. Grades are something solid and definite that I can see. I don't have the self-confidence to pick out my own abilities myself.
Not to mention it's junior year and I feel like if I screw up now, my life is like...destroyed. And it's also the year when all people really talk about is grades. And I feel like an idiot: they are doing better than me, and working hard, and sometimes still not satisfied. It makes me think ... what am I then with my grades? Where is my worth?
There's nothing to distract me either. Life is literally all school. Extracurriculars included but usually that is still stressful and not a relief.
And friends and family. My family, well, my mom expects a lot from me. I guess she doesn't always say so, but I feel like if I fail, I fail her, and that will literally be the worst thing I can think of.
Friends. I don't know. I always feel incompetent when I'm with my friends. They are so obviously THEM, so obviously ... confident in who they are. They are down in the hell hole with me, but I think... at least they don't have the incredible feeling of constant and ever impending failure. And I'm not sure it's the best thing that I'm always with these people who know exactly who they are. Or SOMETHING about who they are. It makes me feel even more insecure.

Sometimes I wish I can just...leave. Go somewhere else. Figure out who I am and what I CAN do, instead of sitting here, learning just how much I can't do. How much I can't do, in comparison to those CAN.

Wow, that was a really long post. ...er...
I don't know. I'll probably just...work hard and do my best and try to ignore that bottomless feeling of permanent failure. Just needed to get this out.

lookbook: sick with memory

http://lookbook.nu/look/90961-sick-with-memory
Wearing: white knit tank | bobble scarf | light yellow cardigan

Just playing around with textures and monochromatic palettes.

lookbook: ooolala firetruck nails!

http://lookbook.nu/look/90357-ooolala-firetruck-nails

Wearing: black silk blouse | black tights | mohair knitted wrap | jean shorts | brown cuff booties | silver rings | skeleton key

I finally got my red nail polish. Teehee very excited. Before, I was always scared of ... well, colors really. I feel like I'm finally breaking free and being more me! :)

streams of last night's thought vomit

Sorry if that's a disgusting title but that literally was what last night was. A thought vomit.

i like the word firetruck
if i have a baby im going to teach him/her that word
right after he/she learns mommy and daddy
FIRETRUCK! FIRETRUCK
FIRETRUCK!!!
if i slouch a bit, i can feel my hair on my thigh
theres a piece of hair in my mouth
my underwear has hot pink lace on it
its peeking through my shorts
i need to shave
i keep forgetting to
i want the sun to sleep next to me
my bruises hurt
they are kind of pretty
blooming
there is an itch on my right foot
should i scratch it?
i just bit my tongue.
ow.
should i wash my hair today
my ears are disgusting
i like wearing shorts when its really really cold
im retarded
i like when my pinky is really cold
and when i hold warms hand
it feels awesome
there is plastic wrap next to me
my euro homework is on 4 different colors of paper
i want a third piercing
sometimes
pervertedly
i want a tattoo as well
somewhere secret
like a flower blooming in no man's land
i realize that i dont like tutoring thomas
i like the way string
falls through my fingers
my fingers are cold
im always scared i will get frostbite one of these days
do you ever...
when you smell something
does it make you think of stuff?
im sort of avoiding a certain bottle of lotion right now
its sitting there
condensation beads inside
when i put it on sometimes
i feel almost sick with memory

i have a secret.


sometimes
when I spin a little in my wooden chair
with the nine cut-out panels
something rushes out
and I whisper out my secret
shhh! don’t tell but
(i’m an imposter. A Pretender!)

my heart is beating too fast